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Spring’s Blessings

Spring’s Blessings

Spring is here!! The Sun Is Shining!

By the time spring shows up with

its glorious colors I’m so used to

the dreary, starkness of winter

that I seem to have forgotten

how much the yellows and

pinks of spring stand out.

My eyes are feasting

and anticipating even more to come!

I’m wondering what renewal is going on

inside of me??

It’s a time to begin to focus outward again after spending the winter months going within while outside is darkness and cold.

I feel myself breathing deeply of

the fresh warm air and rejoicing in spring!

We have a cooper’s hawk couple that returns to the woods in our neighborhood each year. We can see the parents circling each morning and then returning to their nest to feed the babies nestled there.

There’s a red-headed woodpecker that rat-a-tats nearby. And we have a breeze blowing—even the rain coming down washes the pollen out of the air for us to enjoy.

This is the time for us

to feel the blessings of rebirth of life in

the outer world and of opening our

hearts to the wonders of

the world around us.

Can you feel the sap rising?

Can you feel spirit all around us?





As a result of Hurricane Michael’s passage through the Richmond, Virginia area many were without power

many tornadoes wreaked havoc

                                                                                                within a few miles of our house.


Being without power set up a negative reaction in me
                                                                                       of disappointment and
                                                                                                                        the desire to pout
about the inconvenience even though we were well prepared and safe.


We’ve learned what is needed after living in the woods for twenty plus year, what it means to have a well that requires electricity for bathroom flushing.  
Our electricity returned two days later so that we were able to leave for a week’s vacation only a day later than planned. Off we headed to Myrtle Beach where we enjoyed ourselves and got the rest that was needed, basked in the sun, soaked up Vitamins in the warmth. The hurricanes had swept away much of the salt in the air, the sun was out, the temp was perfect…

Then on the drive home (a different way from how we arrived) we began to see

the devastation that people had experienced from these storms.


  • Whole houses gutted,
  • crops blown flat,
  • furniture and appliances, insulation and carpeting pilled out at the street for removal…
  • empty chicken houses

It was a lesson in humility for me

  • seeing mile after mile of the after affects of the storm while
  • feeling for those who were caught in the water,
  • or those animals trapped,
  • for the ruined livelihood of the farmers…                                                                                                                                                                                 What is Mother Earth trying to tell us?

  • How do we cope?

  • How can we help? HOW CAN WE HELP???

Must we continue to be a nation that is insensitive to the suffering of others?
While driving the car in front of us ran over a dog who had ran out in the road. They just drove off… that poor dog dying in the road…
I’m also aware of what is happening in the outer Boston area with the gas explosions—more of the same of having lives shaken to the core with cold weather coming…I pray for those people, as well.

We need to WAKE UP! I’m calling you to WAKE UP MORE!

Let me hear from you.



Headlines from the news: 


  •  75 people shot in Chicago this past weekend 

  • Hurricane Florence–Category 5, heading toward US

I must prepare!!



Physically: I look outside my window to see the sun shining and the temperature down to manageable. How could a hurricane be coming my way? We live in the woods which makes the possibility of no electricity an issue. Fortunately, we have generators and have learned, over the years to live through hurricanes and tornadoes coming through.

Emotionally, I can feel something new bubbling up to the surface. It’s not there yet, but I need to prepare myself for emotions. What could the emotions be? Will I need to wallow for a while? Or will I be ready and willing to feel whatever is there and then let it go?

Mentally, I need to stop trying to figure it all out—something I take great pleasure in doing. I’m almost always wrong but sometimes still get caught up in it. There’s something about what the Pathwork calls negative pleasure—a phenomenon that does not necessarily feel good but gets my juices stirring. There’s a place in me that likes that sometimes…

Spiritually, I am continuously wanting to open up to the spiritual realm, to more and deeper connection with those positive and benevolent beings who are out there ready to give me assistance. All I need to do is ask…open myself to their presence and receive from the universe. This is the place of connection with all, a place where I are one with the universe. It deepens my understanding and my love for all beings.

This I know: the world is safe.

I am no longer attracted to danger.

I recognize how danger and negativity feel and remove myself from it.

How does that work for you?


In The Presence Of Miracles

In The Presence Of Miracles

Do we recognize a Miracle when we see it?

Is there a Burning Bush?

I was recently at our Sevenoaks Retreat Center, Home of the Pathwork, leading a personal quest called an intensive. With each intensive that I have led, I come away feeling like I have witnessed miracles unfolding right in front of me. It breaks open my heart and touches my soul.


Because each person’s journey is individualized and personal, each intensive is completely different with those same miracles can blossom. Spirit has a way of entering the space and opening us to the energy of healing. When we are willing to go to the deepest, darkest part of us, we make tremendous progress on our spiritual journey.


It is mind blowing to me!

I feel so in awe and blessed as I watch it unfold.


Over the years I’ve led quite a few four or five day retreats where I have had the honor to facilitate the beginning steps to transforming a piece that is ready to be transformed. Certainly the person must continue their own spiritual journey afterwards, but they have the possibility to change something in their lives that has been troubling them, holding them back from rmanifesting the kind of life they want.

Looking at myself, I am led to questions about my own spiritual journey.


  • Am I willing to change?
  • Am I taking the steps I need to step more into the light?
  • What holds me back?
The emotion of fear keeps me stuck in the same old rut.
It fuels my negative reactions to life and enables me to continue to stay where I am.


More questions than answers arise

  • How do I know I am doing what I am meant to do?
  • How do I recognize my spiritual journey?
  • Are there miracles that happen in my life?
  • Can I slow down enough to see them?

I want to.

How do you cope with these questions?

My Spiritual Journey

My Spiritual Journey

Lately, I’ve been thinking and questioning myself about

my spiritual journey.

Am I so caught up in the day to day of life that I “forget” that I’m a

spiritual being here in a physical body?

Am I tempted to “give up” the journey? 

Do I feel all alone on the planet?


Yes, to all these questions sometimes. Yet, deep inside I have a place of knowing, a place where I can connect to a deeper part of myself and to my spiritual essence.

That seems like such a lofty phrase—“spiritual essence”.

And what does it mean, anyway?


It’s the part of myself where I know that I am more than just a human being here on earth, a place that knows what I need to do even when the ego part of me disagrees.

I’ve been taking the last few months to reconnect within and to recommit myself to my spiritual journey, to healing what needs healing in me, and to opening more to love.

My need is to give love, to be willing to walk beside another person as they walk down their spiritual path. I’ve come to know my spiritual name as She Who Walks Beside.

That walking beside gives me pleasure—especially when the other being is dedicated to opening their spirituality.

I see so much pain and suffering in this world we live in, so much heartache…even in the traditions of our families, in our inheritance.

A part of me cries out why!!


Why must there be so much hurting of one another? It happens between different parts of the planet; it happens between different factions within one area and another; it happens within families; and it happens within each of us. We are at war to try to stop the pain.

Yet it doesn’t help—I mean even a little bit!!

Is there something else? Something that will help?


I believe that a spiritual journey will assist in healing these deep, deep wounds. It is my spiritual task to spread hope.

There is a way out! Our deep wounding must be addressed in a healthy way.

Join me in stepping out of the ego level, out of the reasoning and thinking, and into this quest to heal. 




What is resistance doing in my life?

I’ve noticed over the last 20 years that we humans resist the very things that are good for us and head right back where we started. I found out last night that a dear friend had slipped back into her addiction to alcohol and drugs after almost a year of being free from the obsession. I’ve been thinking about what that is about.
Naturally, I can’t know what is going on inside someone else, what demons that person is battling, but it makes me do some deep thinking about all the addiction we have in our today world. I have some opinions and beliefs about it that I’d like to share with you.
Somewhere in our past—early childhood, another life?—we encountered trauma. We did the very best we could to cope with what happened to us with a child’s immature brain. It seemed like life or death to us and may actually have been that serious depending on the circumstances. The problem is that we came up with strategies that we still are using to fight off what we believe is more of the same kind of treatment that we received.
There’s an instantaneous trigger response that happens to us like the fight, flight, freeze response. Perhaps we developed a coping strategy that worked but more often than not we were kidding us into believing that we would be safe if we did this strategy. Like using drugs, alcohol, food, sex, shopping… to make us safe.

It just doesn’t work. In fact, we become more vulnerable, attract more trauma to us with this strategy.

What do you do? What is the strategy that you developed early on that you hardly even notice that you are using as a defense? And once you see what you are doing, what is the real affect on others. Do they draw closer and become more supportive? Probably no.

And we do this over and over again while not understanding that we are bringing to us the very negative situations that we are trying to avoid.

For example, consider being a boss to someone who is constantly late for work and shows us under the influence or hung over. Consider being a friend to someone who is drunk instead of showing up for an outing or shows up under the influence and becomes belligerent/morose/seductive…
Why do we continue to do it? My opinion is that we have long ago forgotten what we were actually using the substance about—it’s not because of these surface events but because of that past trauma.
Then to enable us to tolerate what was happening to us, we began to like the negative feeling. We secretly liked the drama, the feeling of aliveness when we were victimized, the revved up feeling when we were beaten down or beating someone else down (better know as enduring or inflicting pain).
If we can really face what we are doing, that place that is below our conscious awareness, we can become more willing to consider that we could replace that negative feeling with something positive.
Here I’m reminded of that Aesop fable about the sun and the wind arguing about who was stronger. The had a contest-who could make the man take off his coat would be the winner. The wind blew and blew and the man wrapped his coat tighter around himself. The sun shone and warmed the man who soon took off his coat.
The moral that I’m thinking about is that we are asking that we give up the blustery pleasure of the negative for the gentle power of the positive. They don’t feel the same but are equally powerful.
Let me hear from you about your thoughts on this subject.


Peace is a possibility right now!!

After having our holiday gathering in December rescheduled because of snow, we turned it into a Valentine’s event. We gathered here to work with connecting our hearts to each other by risking uncovering the spiritual part of us and showing it to others. Here we are before the fire as we shared our hearts…

I’m also passionate about watching the Olympics. It stirs a place in me that loves my country even as I disagree with many ideas that are present now. When I see that podium with a USA person on top and the National Anthem is played, my heart swells.

It all is coming together as a wondering about this Pathwork and why we feel so strongly about it as an avenue to heal our hearts, why we are so passionate about the work we do. I see how much violence and discord exists in our world—the horrible oppression of women, the shootings in schools, the hunger and inability to provide basic needs for the children, the addiction that abounds, the sexual abuse and much more. What can I do? How can I help?

The answer that comes to me is to hold this belief that Peace Is Possible!!! It is possible for us to heal and live together in our dissimilar ways without resorting to violence and oppression, to hurting another to make us feel better, to putting someone else under our control to feel safe. I feel stirred as I write this to hear about yet another shooting, about yet another example of animal abuse. How can we be a God-fearing country and still participate in such terrible things?

I guess the first step for me is to stop passing on by, ignoring another’s pain. It is a way for me to not cover my light, a way for me to send out love into the world. Would you join me?

What’s My Soul Purpose?

What’s My Soul Purpose?

And What Was I thinking when I chose this life?


I’ve been thinking lately about how important family is to me while a recurring theme in my life is feeling abandoned and alone, without a caring supportive family. Now I’m wondering what kind of lesson my soul needs to learn that is being brought to my attention. Here’s how I believe it works—the soul decides what lessons are needed and then finds a way for us to learn that lesson. We can look at those issues that seem to continue to come up in life, the ones that we find so difficult to change, the ones that we are sure are never going to come up again. Then once again we find ourselves experiencing the same theme.


Are we right back to square one? Did we do something wrong to have this same issue show up over and over? I think it’s much more complicated than judging of ourselves. I believe that if we could fix it easily, we would have done it already. We would not have had to dedicate a lifetime to fixing this issue. The question then becomes, “What is the lesson that I need to learn?”


I’ve been in reaction to the issue as I judged myself harshly for not having solved it. For me, it seems to be the theme of no one there. Now I’m looking at it with different eyes. What if that is not the question I should be asking myself? What if the question is more along the lines of putting myself out to all of you, or me giving a part of me from the heart. Would you even want my heart energy coming in? Would that action on my part send me into a “family?”


My reaction, over the years, to feeling alone has even gone into despair as family seems to be busy living their lives. I felt abandoned. It happened with the immediate family I was born into—an only child with older parents who did not take care of themselves and passed away when I was in my twenties. It happened when my first marriage ended and ultimately led me into a new way of being that meant finding my adult “sea legs” and my positive attributes but at the time it felt like I was abandoned.


I’m wondering now about the spiritual significance of this issue of feeling alone. The Pathwork teachings are clear that we come into life with a mission that needs to be resolved. Is this mine? How do I resolve it? I immediately know the answer is to feel it. I wonder if I could be the one doing the abandoning. Could I have reached out more? Was it me?


I think it’s a real possibility. I’m going to have to spend some time with this. The Pathwork teachings let us know that whatever issue we are bothered by in others is probably in us.


I’d love to know what issue you see as recurring. Or am I the only one?

Send me your comments…

What do you unconsciously believe?

What do you unconsciously believe?

Deep inside I have beliefs that rule my life circumstances

This year I’ve been teaching in the Pathwork Transformation Program Year 4 which focuses on taking steps to heal the shadow side. In supporting this class, I have been getting more and more clear about what and when the shadow side of us is created and how it affects our lives. We each are born into a imperfect life. Perhaps we experienced trauma, the busyness of our primary caretakers, neglect, abuse, or even what appears to have been perfectly pleasant but without connection to love.

To be fair, the generation before ours worked extremely hard to “bring home the bacon,” or “make ends meet.” That generation wanted to be a success, to rise above what their parents had experienced. I know my dad grew up on a farm…he could make anything grow. It was amazing. And he hated it, didn’t want to live that way. He was one of those depression era people who left home to make his own way. His emotional maturity, as with many of that generation, was less than available to him and, therefore, to me. And then there was THE WAR. That took my dad to the South Pacific, away from family, away from what he knew.

In any event, I grew up in an emotionally unstable environment. Emotions were less than maturely dealt with which greatly impacted me. As I look back on my prePathwork life, I see how much I was impacted by looking at the choices I made in my life—important choices like what career I chose, what kind of mate I attracted.

What I’m learning anew this year, as I witness my  class grappling with these topics, is that we all develop that shadow side early in life. You’ve probably heard the saying, “I learned everything I needed by the time I was 5.” At the age of 5 we haven’t developed the capacity to reason things out or see the other person’s point of view, or not take what others do personally. Instead we are just trying to learn how to navigate through the world, to figure out how the world works. Most often we get it wrong about how the world works, but since we are so young, we don’t have words to express and maybe no one to hear what we want to say who can explain it to us.

The Pathwork gives this process a name. It’s called an image. In coming up with an image, a belief about how the world works, we find a measure of order that allows us to survive. That image goes into the unconscious and fuels the fires of our shadow side. We are determined, in living with this belief, that the belief is real and true. We can give examples about how it is true; we can dispute with anyone who wants to argue the point.

Then we come up with a way of behaving that is based on this belief. Usually that behavior isn’t helpful to us in attracting the people and life circumstances that we want, but it doesn’t matter to us. Unconsciously, we intend to continue that behavior because we know that it means our survival.

I remember teaching in the high school and having a student who had not understood how to divide fractions. He argued so hard that the process that he had made up was correct. But it wasn’t. Images are like that…We are convinced they are true. Take a moment to tune in. What are your beliefs? Here are some I have heard often in various forms: the world isn’t safe, you can’t trust men/women/people. No one will do it so I have to, it’s best to force your way to where you want to go, if I just think about it long enough, then I’ll be safe…and many, many more.

And these beliefs set up a way of being in the world that isn’t helpful. My biggest image came from being 2 years old, standing beside the couch where my mother lay passed out. There was no one else in the house. I decided that this was happening because I was unlovable. My adult mind knows that the affects of alcohol had nothing to do with my being lovable or not. But the child inside me was convinced that the belief was true.

I’m all grown up (at least physically) and wanting friendships and a mate. What kind of person do you think I attracted to me with this belief that I’m unlovable stored deep inside? People who didn’t know how to love…it took so much work for me to let go of that belief. I found a place inside where I liked the negativity I got from not feeling lovable. I could complain, accuse, say whatever I wanted, blame, withdraw, even ridicule or abandon. It didn’t matter because I wasn’t lovable anyway!!

Previously, I wasn’t aware I had the belief much less know how to work on it. It took a Pathwork Helper to gently lead me to a new life. I worked on it for a long time before I could see how much I was hurting myself and became willing to change and then to actually give up the belief all the way down to the child level. The change in my life happened quickly after that. I walked into a new life where my worthiness wasn’t in question, where making a mistake no longer meant I was a mistake. That is what the Pathwork can do for you. Are you ready to make this leap?

What is the leap like? It’s very scary. It has a component of connecting with the Spirit Realm in a way uniquely suited to me. I’ve opened up to so much that I wasn’t even aware of before. That’s for another time, but I want you to know that joy and happiness are nearby and possible for you.

We Are One

We Are One


Cruelty to Others is Cruelty to Me


The Pathwork teachings have been such an inspiration, a guide, and a new way of viewing the events of the world. The Mid-Atlantic Pathwork Helpers had a retreat last week that brought some of those teachings into the forefront of my conscious awareness. As I go into the season of gratitude, I’m so grateful that I found the Pathwork. It has changed my life for the better.


Since there is always more to learn about what lives within the depths of the being, the Pathwork guide instructs us with the knowledge and wisdom that we are never finished diving deeply inside. As I continue into spiritual realm, I settle into a profound sense of trust that all is well, that all is perfectly aligned with my/our development as individuals, as a country, as the human race, and even as a planet.


How will we interact with others from this deeper dimension? Can we stay connected to Spirit and interact with others? I say yes. We will not ever be perfect but staying conscious will make more meaningful relationships available to us. That’s one of the goals I have in life.


And now it’s time for me to take a deeper dive where I step back even more into spirit to feel how we are all One. The plants and animals are One with us. We must stop abusing other beings.  I can hardly bear to feel the pain that is alive in our world…

*the violence that is around us constantly,

*the danger to our children,

*the slaughter of animals in the most cruel ways just for pleasure,

*the way we raise animals inhumanely for food,

*the way we are unconscious about the plants that we grow, about the trees that give us shade, shelter, wood


Perhaps we could take this time of thanksgiving to pray that we give up our need for cruelty.


If we are all One, then the cruelty we allow to be in this world is also cruelty to us. What if every act reverberates back to us? What if the cruelty that exists on the other side of the planet will find its way to us?

I want to hold all with love and compassion. That is my positive intention.